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Posts tagged ‘Prayer’

Paramount Reflection…

Mirror mirror, in the sky,
Show me, who I am through Your eyes.

Reflect to me what You see.
Heart… soul… strength…

Search me with Your penetrating gaze,
Into my inward hidden place.

All that You find pleasing to You,
Amplify in Your love and truth.

And that which You wish to refine,
Reveal and transform to Your design.

Grant me willingness,
Surrender and obedience…

©E.D. Allee
September, 2014

Confronting And Accepting No…

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I feel as though God’s placed it on my heart to write this. The subject was the source of such intense pain as recent as a year ago.  I am unable to have children- one of the hardest things I’ve had to accept. When my faith began to strengthen, and the fog of my addictions started to lift in recovery… God showed me peace. Maybe some of you can relate, and even find some peace.

Why? The question I asked over and over.
I couldn’t understand.
Unable to put my longing to rest,
The dream, that as a little girl, was placed within.

Dreaming of when I’d hold those tiny hands.
Look upon that precious face.
A reflection of God’s love
Staring into my eyes, hope’s gaze.

My heart ached at the sight,
At the touch, at the thought,
At the scent as I held them,
At the sound of their cries, I felt loss.

Movies depicting a new additions’ joy,
Commercials, news of loved one expecting,
No matter how happy I was for them,
Inside, I was so very sad for me.

My friends, my sister… I couldn’t understand.
Perplexed, trying, thinking at times it was real,
Only to find it was false.
A tortuous taunting, I never thought I’d heal.

Then, the day came.
My eyes opened to truth.
I knew God’s plan was perfect,
My heart, was gently soothed.

I don’t have to understand.
I don’t have to know why.
I was such a mess for so long,
Probably best I was denied.

I remember the moment,
When I knew I was healed.
When the brokenness simply remained
In tearful echoes loosely concealed.

On my knees, I prayed to God,
Speaking the words “Thank You”.
Grateful that I was taken care of,
And that my baby, not to be, was too…

©E.D. Allee
March, 2014

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Walking Dead…

Stagger, erratic, head unsteady and down turned.
Thinner than a person should be.
Hair disheveled, short shorts in cool temps,
The walking dead among the living.

I wonder where her mind is at,
Speedily walking, countenance filled with fear.
So exposed, unable to hide from witnessing eyes,
My heart hurts, seeing her likely in addictions snares.

So, I pray for you, remembering the bondage.
May God envelop you in His love.
Fill you with hope and strength.
Guide you to help, send you one to trust.
I pray you hold on to life.
Seeing the hope and light ahead.
Resisting the desire to quit.
Choosing to return from the walking dead.

©E.D. Allee
March, 2014

 

Rise And Pray…

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Now I stand, this day to greet,
I pray Thee Lord watch over me.
If I should stumble, or with fear quake,
I pray Thee Lord show me the way.

Amen

©E.D. Allee
March, 2014

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I Pray…

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Father God, I pray,

Paint me beautiful, inside and out,
Fill my countenance with Your light.
Bathe me in Your love till I’m full,
Help me share that love, so it may ignite,

Walk with me hand in hand,
When I’m able to stand upright.
And carry me when my legs are weak,
Sustaining me with Your might.

Without you I am nothing,
On my own I sink in the rising tide.
Help me be what You want me to be,
I seek to be pleasing in Your sight…

©E.D. Allee
March, 2014

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I Do Know Serenity…

I feel her upon my awakenings,
She rests through the night by my side.
She senses when I am sad,
And stays close with watchful eyes.

Peaceful, comforting, and loyal,
The serenity I’m blessed to know
I asked for “God to grant me”,
And He made it so…

©E.D. Allee
March, 2014

My cat Serenity- her name suits her!

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Opening The Gift…

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There is surface level clarity,
Grasping only at the finger tips.
Of God’s outstretched wisdom,
Idle, leaving unwrapped His offered gift.

Meditation upon truth, neglected,
Many unclaimed revelations.
A loyalty to the comfort of ignorance,
Freedom from accountability and obligation.

But there’s more…

The ease of living enlightened,
The light within the truth.
The peace of a deeper relationship,
With a God, who guides and renews.

Rough surfaces get smoother with time,
Avoiding, and escaping snares becomes easier.
If the gift is opened, and understanding is sought,
Through prayer, and in Gods Word…

©E.D. Allee
March, 2014

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