Serenity IS…

Kingman Wash in Arizona. Iphone snap

Crystal jewel amid desert rigidity,
Exposed in willing transparency.
Deep tonal blue your reflective canopy,
Your icy December embrace still entices me.

My fingers playfully seek
Expectant through chilled caress,
Revitalize me.
I feel the settled stones,
You and time have smoothed diligently.
And respectfully I acknowledge,
You haven’t always known such serenity.
Rugged unpolished rocks,
Droughts and waters raging.
Yet I know and remember when trials oppress,
Serenity IS, and when absent, will again be…

©E.D. Allee
January 1, 2015

But After…

As the storms rage,
Dark clouds block the sun.
Lightning and thunder
spill their fury
With beastly intensity.
Cyclones circulate,
Spreading debris
With forceful ease.
Torrential downpours
Threaten solidarity.

I cannot hear
I cannot see clearly
I have to hide
I grow frightened and weary

The storm passes.
Sun’s healing light
Befalls the fallen.
The earth swallows
Torrent remains.
A peaceful calm surrounds.
Threatening gales fade
Into gentle breezes.
Debris settles,
And recovery begins.

I can hear
I can see clearly
I needn’t hide
The world isn’t quite so scary

©E.D. Allee
May, 2014

Image: https://andoreza.com/wp-content/uploads/2013/12/Out-of-the-storm-into-the-yellow-sunrise.jpg?165a18

“A Time to Mourn, A Time to Dance”… (Tales of new beginnings)

Snap out of it; it’s over
There nothing you can do
The self pity is strangling
Move on and start anew

You’ve fallen and it hurt
You’re a little broken and bruised
But you’re on track to succeed
Get focused in that groove

I write for catharsis
I write so others feel less marooned
I write to encourage empathy
For people not like you

I’ve been on pause to mourn
I’m shedding the feelings of doom
Time’s stood still long enough
I must reclaim hope and gratitude…
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This is part of my journey. My mistakes and trials help me grow. Acceptance has been hard this time, but I’m still here. I’m still breathing. My heartbeat and my pain are evidence of life, and I owe it to God, myself, and those I love… To strive.

©E.D. Allee
May, 2014

New sobriety date: May 10,  2014

Winged Symbols…

 

Butterflies on the ceiling
Butterflies on the ground
Butterflies on all four walls
Butterflies all around

Transformation a constant
Surrounding with no avoidance
Just hold on tight for the ride
Along life’s unpredictable expanse

Butterflies to touch
Butterflies within
Butterflies to uplift
Butterflies free on the wind

They are the soul in flux
They’re the mind in growth
They’re the heart filled with love
Renewal, rebirth, newness, hope…

©E.D. Allee
March, 2014

Image: http://ipicturee.com/many-colorful-abstract-butterflies-hd-wallpaper-hd-wallpapers/

Springtime Renewal… A “Piku”

This post was inspired by M. Zane McClellan, a very talented poet, in honor of Pi Day (new to me!). You can find specifics for writing guidelines for a “Piku” at his blog: http://thepoetrychannel.wordpress.com/2014/03/14/an-ode-to-pi/#like-936 -including external link.

The syllable requirements are listed next to each of my poem’s lines. Zane has a link for more info and a great example he wrote himself. Thanks to Zane for schooling me on a new style!

3-Spring’s newness
1-blooms.
4-displaying joy’s
1-glow.
5-effervescently
9-sharing hope to all witnessing eyes
2-freely.
6-reflecting peaceful hues,
5-meant to encourage
3-renewal.

©E.D. Allee
March, 2014

Image: http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-r8TKMFUaFvA/UVT80zEK34I/AAAAAAAAb5o/TJWSSd-SQJA/s1600/Spring.jpg

 

From This Moment…

Today’s a new day.
Convinced the sun shines for her,
She begins again…

©E.D. Allee
March, 2014

Pic: http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-L3Ii98iXt8E/UKgFLlN1XFI/AAAAAAAAIik/rvpGtDtLJT8/s1600/sad-girl-alone–feelings-broken-heart.jpg

You Failed at Taking All of Me…

I said goodbye when I never

Had a real chance to say hello

You gripped me from the start

By my long hair and wouldn’t let go

Sunk your teeth into my neck 

Trying to make me like you

Taking my soul one drink, one hit, one line at a time

You kept my hurting eyes from your deceitful truth

I allowed you to separate me from me

Leaving an almost empty shell

Reducing me to below minimum

In the darkest pit, alone with you I did dwell

I blended in, merged with my surroundings

Shadows became my confidants 

No soft pillow to rest my head

Barely aware of my beating heart

 

I hear you calling still, from beyond illusory ashy remains

You lie in wait for my return

Patient, calculating, vindictive 

Of my weaknesses you’ve learned

 

One thing you didn’t count on

Was the restoration of my faith in God

You didn’t know I’d have a powerful ally on my side

That there would be barriers, heavy shields between us strong

 

Your wiles, your threats

Your intimidations have lost strength

No remnants remain of your false love

Appears as though you failed… at taking all of me!

©E.D. Allee

 December 2013

11 Months Clean/Sober: Haiku Reflection

 

Eleven months clean
Didn’t see that one coming
One day at a time!

I know newfound peace
Promises are coming true
I hope for today

What once was a dream
Becoming reality
I’m grateful to God

Knowing renewal 
I sit and reflect in awe
I am worth saving 

AA’s been for me
A catalyst to my growth
Helping light the way

©E.D. Allee

December 5, 2013