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See The Transformation…

Artist: Danny O'Conner Art By Doc Amazing!!!!! http://art-by-doc.deviantart.com/art/Visions-Of-Summer-355602069

Artist: Danny O’Conner Art By Doc Amazing!!!!! http://art-by-doc.deviantart.com/art/Visions-Of-Summer-355602069

See the transformation,
The change before the change.
The metamorphosis which will be,
When it’s the true you, you embrace.

Her ethereal existence,
Whisper of your tomorrow upon today.
Awaiting the steps of your journey,
Starting with one, your courage displayed.

You’ve been afraid to discover,
What’s destined to be yours.
Truths hidden by layers of facades,
Authenticity masked, hope obscured.

But I see her. Wings unveiled.
Through the hardships and mistakes.
To the light that already is,
And a dawn that waits to break…

©E.D. Allee
February 2015

Dedicated to a friend in a newly blossoming friendship… Angela
Wishing her beauty in self discovery upon her journey.

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Winged Symbols…

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Butterflies on the ceiling
Butterflies on the ground
Butterflies on all four walls
Butterflies all around

Transformation a constant
Surrounding with no avoidance
Just hold on tight for the ride
Along life’s unpredictable expanse

Butterflies to touch
Butterflies within
Butterflies to uplift
Butterflies free on the wind

They are the soul in flux
They’re the mind in growth
They’re the heart filled with love
Renewal, rebirth, newness, hope…

©E.D. Allee
March, 2014

Image: http://ipicturee.com/many-colorful-abstract-butterflies-hd-wallpaper-hd-wallpapers/

Transformative Love… (Haiku)

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Transformative love.
Untamed metamorphosis.
Healing wounded hearts.

©E.D. Allee
March, 2014

Pic: http://meganneforbes.com/spirit-gallery/transformationl/

Fallen Into Fate…

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She got lost during her planned transformation,
Merged her lifeless wings with the other fallen.
Connecting out of necessity,
To a collectiveness of the forgotten.

Dissolved into a new work of art,
An accent looked upon with condolement.
Still beautiful, but glued down,
By complacencies strong cement.

Patterns eventually blur; colors fade over time.
What will you experience in the wait?
What if your expected transformation was an illusion?
Was this, maybe, always your fate?

©E.D. Allee
February, 2014

Picture: http://www.deviantart.com/art/Colours-Dust-and-Memories-431297016

 

 

 

One Year Clean And Sober…

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Three hundred sixty five days have past
Leading to a miracle I couldn’t envision
I once wished to end my life
To be free from two decades of prison

Shackled in bondage to an unrelenting master
A jailor spiteful and cruel
One who fed me to sustain my life
Only to prolong his rule

The years grew darker with time
The window to my cell got smaller
I knew little peace with eyes open
And my dreams were filled with horror

The illusory sense of peace
I once so craved and desired
Melted away into pools of necessity
With painted emotions and scribbled smiles

On the last day I used…
January fourth two thousand thirteen
I knew my options were to quit or die
A choice terribly hard for me

Death or life without chemical alteration
Finally live free from addictions’ chains
A decision perhaps simple for some
But I was terrified I’d fail at trying to change

I did choose life, leaping forward in faith
Holding only to a desperate desire
I’d failed many times before
Although my needs were always dire 

I dwelled in a dark abyss of my design
An abyss filled with a raging sea
Kept afloat by drink or drug
The very same which tried to drown me

I quit… I was angry, afraid, in pain, and shaking
Sick and weak, unstable in mind and emotions
Grasping to something I couldn’t see
Hopeless, alone, worn and broken

In time things improved, I began to let go
Of the grip I held destructively tight 
I became willing to get the help I needed
And gradually saw hope in sight

I had an AA sponsor by then
Cynthia, The helper I came to know
Addiction treatment and meetings
Began revealing alternatives to sorrow

I opened up to God, my higher power
I sought diligently to know Him once more
I learned belief was insufficient
My faith had to be restored

My abyss began filling the moment I stopped digging
Eventually I grabbed outstretched hands
The raging sea became an ocean of soft swells
And at that time healing began

One year later, far removed from that darkness
I reflect upon the trials and triumphs
I’m grateful I declined death’s temptation
By accepting God’s help and guidance

If only I had known back then…
I’d have told my broken spirit to hold on
I’d share with her what I understand now
Let her know hope exists upon new horizons
I’d cheer her on each day of success
Hold her hand with each falling tear
Tell her that life will not hurt so bad forever
And that one day she’ll be able to feel
She’d feel without the torment of ever increasing pain
She’d sit still in her own skin
She’d look people in the eyes, not down in shame
She’d break free from the demons within

To myself today I say
You’re a long way from that arduous start
One day at a time you’ve progressed
But you mustn’t ever stop
Stay close to God and continue seeking
So enlightenment you’ll find
Walk forward, using the past as a tool
Demons in wait, grow stronger in time
Know you can never open the door
To the world which once enslaved you
Be vigilant not to fall into the nets 
Cast as traps meant to undo

Way to go Elizabeth
You’ve achieved the seemingly impossible
I will write to you again this time next year
And report on the remarkable!

©E.D. Allee
January 5, 2014

 

You Failed at Taking All of Me…

I said goodbye when I never

Had a real chance to say hello

You gripped me from the start

By my long hair and wouldn’t let go

Sunk your teeth into my neck 

Trying to make me like you

Taking my soul one drink, one hit, one line at a time

You kept my hurting eyes from your deceitful truth

I allowed you to separate me from me

Leaving an almost empty shell

Reducing me to below minimum

In the darkest pit, alone with you I did dwell

I blended in, merged with my surroundings

Shadows became my confidants 

No soft pillow to rest my head

Barely aware of my beating heart

 

I hear you calling still, from beyond illusory ashy remains

You lie in wait for my return

Patient, calculating, vindictive 

Of my weaknesses you’ve learned

 

One thing you didn’t count on

Was the restoration of my faith in God

You didn’t know I’d have a powerful ally on my side

That there would be barriers, heavy shields between us strong

 

Your wiles, your threats

Your intimidations have lost strength

No remnants remain of your false love

Appears as though you failed… at taking all of me!

©E.D. Allee
 December 2013

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