I am not sure why,
But I have to say it’s scary.
The thoughts within my mind,
Fear is creeping in on me.
Considerations of chemical alteration,
What the heck is this?
It’s been over a year since I drank or used,
But these feelings are so intense!
I feel the memories of my altered states,
Like bliss flowing through my body.
My eyes close in recollective reflection,
What is happening to me?!
I’m taking this quite well,
Under the serious circumstances.
I meet with my sponsor today,
And have two meetings planned.
This doesn’t have to ruin me.
God’s got me, and won’t let go.
I’m just perplexed at this reality.
Yet, I suspect it will help me grow.